Dealing with Burnout - {Personal Story}

When I got my first dev job after 5 months of hustling, I was super excited. I got the perfect role which I always wished to have. It’s a pretty common occurrence, especially in smaller companies: a junior dev thrown into the deep end, they flounder a bit, they learn a lot, and they use their youthful energy to code and deliver on time.

In the first 2 months, I was not just developing Frontend, but I also worked on the Design side. I loved it. I felt like I was growing at a super-fast rate, and I was saying yes to everything. It felt good for my career, so I figured that meant all of the constant activity was good for my personal life, too.

Spoiler Alert : NOOOOOOOOO, it wasn’t

I spent late-night learning and struggling at my job to finish the simple tasks.

I felt like I’m working hard and really long hours but accomplishing a lot less. I know- long working !==productivity.

I burnt out. imposter syndrome hit me hard. Burnout is difficult to describe to people who haven’t felt it, I didn’t want to talk to anyone, I couldn’t get off my bed, I wanted to cry at just the thought of having to go back to work the next day. I worked so much that I couldn’t pursue my hobbies anymore and had no time to myself. I felt obligated to everyone but myself and thought that I was going to let people down if I said no to anything. I wouldn’t wish those feelings on anyone. To this day, I feel a weight on my chest.

I have accomplished most of the things which there on my checklist. quitting the stable MNC and joining an early-stage startup is one of the best decisions I ever took and I’m super happy about it.

working at a startup is no joke, one should join only if they are serious about it. I got exposure to various new things. without any prior experience in programming, it was hard for me to digest.

few months passed, and now I’m super happy about the initial struggles. feeling much better and now I want to take a break. last 5 days left in 2020. wanna correct my mistakes. learn the fundaments in the right way.

In the upcoming year, I want to spend time focusing on my core domain and strengthen my weakness. and then eventually explore other areas. I just realized we can’t learn everything when we are starting out. it takes time.

Note:- This was purely for the documentation purpose. I just started my Tech career, I will be super happy to see my progress over years. I like to learn in public. Fail fast and learn fast.

Happy Coding🔥🚀